Chip On My Shoulder

I've got the streets in my blood.  You know how the saying goes, I can't get it out of me.  I used to roam the alleys with the most cop free routes I could come up with.  Cops operate like clockwork and after a while you begin to know where they hang out, and adjust your route accordingly.  Don't ask me why I notice these kinds of things, because I couldn't tell you.  At the time I roamed the alleys for a reason, I was up to no good.  Now days I do it out of habit.  I know where the cops park and what roads I never see cops on and even certain times they come down a specific street.  I'm not a criminal and I don't really have anything to be afraid of, but I find it best to avoid cops like the plague.  I'm a young dude in a nice ride and I'm the prefect target.  I've had more negative run-ins with the law because of their attitude than anything.  Mostly let go because I didn't do anything.  I was once detained because I wouldn't let them search my car and when their dog didn't smell anything they let me go.  But, they didn't search my car.

Why am I even saying all of this?  Because last night they caught me slipping.  I wasn't paying attention.  I got pulled over, doing the speed limit, and they want to fuck with me when it's 20° outside.  Got me out of the car asking me a hundred questions about nonsense.  All just to let me go.  I don't get it.  I'm a pretty reasonable, respectful dude.  I have to admit that when I see a cop in the rearview mirror my heart leaps.  That's my natural instinct toward them.

So, yesterday I wrote about going with the flow of life and I'll be damned, what a hell of a day it was!  Work was insane.  There was all kinds of unusual crap going on in an extreme way.  Made me wonder if I had asked for it.  A 16 hour shift in stressful conditions and then pulled overto seal the deal.  I couldn't do anything but laugh.  I laughed more than halfway home.  I didn't overreact to any of it, I did just go with the flow.  I've got a bit of a quick temper when it comes to certain things like work and police.  But I kept it under control.  It's not that I didn't think about the situations, it's that I didn't think negatively about them.  That's a big change for me.  Perhaps with the weight that fell from my shoulders it took a little of the chip that was there with it.