Saturday, July 19, 2014

19 July 2014


Weeks have passed since I last made a post, as each one passes faster than the last. Soon I forget that I'm a writer and the thought of setting out to complete any piece is daunting, at best. The fact is, I have written, I just haven't finished anything. At the moment I have at least ten drafts which are 1/3 undone, sitting, waiting to serve some purpose. Even if their only reason for being is to placate me. Sometimes I'll take a few pieces, cannibalize them, and allow something new, more current to emerge. 

Summer unfolds with warm days and cool nights, on which I like to sit outside, in the dark, and stare at the sky and completely lose myself to it. The night thrusts upon me a calm, as it demands my attention I have no choice but to live in the moment. Living in the moment is fuckin hard, y'all, it goes against the way we as people are wired.  What makes it even harder is when one tries to rewire their brain, everyone else around them is still plugged in to the matrix. Yes, I still reference stupid, old movies. 

So, I'm still alive and functioning and I haven't been feeling very creative. That shit comes and goes, I try not to stress about it. Oftentimes getting out of my head is the best thing I can do, but in order to write I have to brave that territory once in a while. Just not right now, I'm kind of enjoying  the quiet.  

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  1. Peace is a difficult thing to teach oneself. But one you're there, your heart makes you stay.

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    1. Peace is something I think we have, we simply have to find it. I find my peace in between the words.

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  2. Nothing good comes out when things are unnecessarily pushed. Let them lose and they will arrange themselves in the most beautiful manner.

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    1. You're right, forcing my hand isn't conducive to creativity, at all. Thanks for reading.

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  3. I'm in a similar mindset these days too, just focusing on living in the present and dreaming about the future.

    Writing doesn't come easily, but sometimes it's ok to give yourself a break and see what happens. Eventually it will come back to you and the words will flow naturally.

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    1. Like I said, I find my peace in between the words. Good to see you.

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  4. This is me. Life isn't bad, in fact, it's pretty amazing, except and I can't seem to quit smoking. That will come in time. Plus, I'm not creative either but I think it's okay sit by and watch the good things in motion and appreciate.

    Please, I wanted to make the spoon isn't a spoon reference to go with yours but I never get the line exactly right haha.

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    1. Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.

      Neo: What truth?

      Spoon boy: There is no spoon.

      Neo: There is no spoon?

      Spoon boy: Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself

      I like that shit too

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    2. YES! I'm glad you posted it. Loved that exchange. The truth doesn't bend but we do.

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  5. Sometimes what we want to say doesn't always come out right away... sometimes we have to write it once or twice and sometimes we have to let it sit for awhile...

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    1. I do tend to let things marinate quite a bit. Thanks for stopping by.

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  6. The quiet is a great place to be, especially when we can sit still long enough to hear the silence.

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  7. what?? the matrix is not stupid, i watched it for the first time not too long ago at the request of a friend i was i was pleasantly surprised. i'd watch it again.

    "The night thrusts upon me a calm, as it demands my attention I have no choice but to live in the moment." i like how you say things... i feel this way about mornings. why does it feel that way for you? is it the solitude? that's what it is for me... the quiet.

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    1. The night is quiet, like early mornings, yes. But I quite like the darkness, and the moon. Yea, the moon.

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  8. I wish I could read those pieces, fragments.

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    1. Perhaps I will put it together.

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  9. Living in the moment... hmm. It seems that perhaps I have a problem with that, as well. We do what we can, when we can.

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    1. And it always seems to happen at the right time, does it not?

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  10. I can sort of relate to it as I have written a lot of stuff but I haven't finished anything. I am working on it almost every minute and the words revolve around my head. Even though I don't want to stress, I am stressing out a lot. I don't know why is this happening, By the way, I like how you have written this post. It's awesome. :)

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    1. Haha, this post? This post was kinda lame, but I do appreciate it anyway.

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