Sunday, November 24, 2013

That's my number


It's cold, unnaturally so for this time of year.  A brisk, mile long walk after my midnight shift affords me the opportunity to get lost in my head while trying to block out the frigid air.  It works, but all I could think about was being hungry, and not only for a hot plate with some eggs, but I'm hungry to feel more...to feel more of everything.  I use my big words such as insatiable to say that what I crave basically ain't attainable, unsustainable, it makes me feel kinda disdainful.  It's ok though, to feel more is only a small aspect of the whole.  I now know that I can, when for a long time there I thought I was destined for a life void of all emotion.  There are oceans that don't run as deep as me, and that's a bold claim which means everything and nothing all at once.  I'm a talking oxymoron, and I'm more on an onslaught than a kick cuz that's what I do with bad habits.  I'm a million fragments that somehow come together in a philosophical manner.  And I definitely take myself way too serious sometimes, it's just fuckin life, we live and hopefully laugh a little then we die.  This is my complex simplicity.  Don't beg to differ with me cuz that shit don't do any good, haha.  Yea.

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  1. I think we do take life too serious at times... very well written ...

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  2. i've been sitting here trying to figure out which line i want to take and highlight, however, if i'm being honest, i may as well just take the whole effing post because there were so many quotable lines. the way you tell your stories... pure brilliance. it just flows so seamlessly.

    i don't think anyone is destined for a life void of emotion. there's always room for someone/something to help fill the tiny gaps in between the millions of fragmented pieces of your philosophical style. i do believe. and i'm not begging to differ, just saying... you feel me? :)

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    1. You think I'm quotable? Read Walden, every sentence that dude writes is quotable, it's madness. :)

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  3. We haven't met before. I really liked the confident flow and the element of surprise in your first few lines. The surprise, for me, may be down to my first 'meeting' with your way with words. I felt as I read the last few lines that some shyness and, or embarrassment was creeping in about what you shared... two different sides of the same coin.

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    1. Interesting, and thanks for the comment. I'd like to think that I'm getting better with the flow of surprise turns. No shyness or embarrassment, more me being humble. Stop by more often.

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  4. I throughly enjoy your posts. Very well written. You make me think you've had some kind of temporary lobotomy (I know, not possible). I also feel you must give yourself much more credit in life.

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