Sunday, April 7, 2013

Shout Out

Sometimes things crop up in life that were totally unexpected, and quite possibly at the worst time imaginable.  Living on the fly can be a welcomed thing but sometimes it allows us to be vulnerable, and even that isn't necessarily a bad thing.  These surprise happenings here lately definitely haven't been a bad thing, but could have been infinitely better had the timing been right.  Leaving me more vulnerable to things outside my control than ever before and I'm having to learn to adjust and adapt as the days go by.  It's very hard to open up when you trust just about nobody.  I've had trust ripped away from me in some of the worst ways and the time came when I just gave up trusting people.  I can be open and honest, but it's never full details and I'll only tell you as much as I trust you with, which is very little.  Here it's quite a bit different in that it's not face to face and much easier to spill it all onto this blank white page.  Trust is something I'm working on and even opening up this little bit as I've done here is making a difference.

I've got a few people in my life that I trust to the fullest with anything about myself.  Others I just tell them what they need to know and I think this is probably something everyone does.  It really helps to have someone around that can listen and understand and thinks about life along the same lines.  I've had a couple very very important people pop up here recently and they're helping me to break out of this concrete shell I've created.  I just wanted to give them a shout out and let them know I appreciate it.  Putting up with my wild rantings can be quite taxing, but somehow y'all manage to do it.  So thanks.  You're all great.


  1. having someone to be entirely yourself with is a true blessing. I'm the same way, theres only a few special people who really feel me.

  2. A long time ago I didn't trust, and I was so reserved and private that I would hang on to myself for dear life, allowing very few into my world. I feel most comfortable on the page; even now, I still get "page fright" but I push myself along. I still am reserved and am careful with what I divulge in person because I don't want to be misunderstood or have another squash my dreams. But I'm glad to have a few that I allow in. As long as I know who I am, that's all that matters, but I do protect myself.

    I admire your willingness and ability to put yourself out there on the page and allow yourself to be vulnerable.

  3. it helps that you're effing awesome. who wouldn't wanna help a brotha out?

    i kind of envy your blog. i wish i could write out loud like that.. maybe i'll start an anonymous one, some day... i just love the way you express yourself. you are an inspiration. shine on homeslice..