Mind drifting with the smoke from my lungs, I've needed to write for days now. It's a maddening feeling when your heart wants purge but your brain can't find the words to release. Late nights in the shed, alone with my thoughts to steep in the intoxicating air around me, I rather enjoy them. My solitude is golden to me.
I've been hearing a common theme among some bloggers lately and its been on my mind quite a bit. I have to turn things over in my mind many times before I am comfortable with them, comfortable enough to talk about them. And this isn't necessarily directed at those blogs I read, it really applies to most people in general. People appear to sell themselves short so easily, they give in and turn to prayer or give up. I agree that those things alone aren't bad things, but we as people have a tendency to expect unrealistic things to happen. Prayer is an interesting thing in my opinion, people set aside these moments to look within and listen for a minute and really focus attention on whatever it may be. I think it's unreasonable to expect miracles from prayers, but what I think most people are missing in the moment is the only one they can really talk to, themselves, ourselves. The only one who can set anything into motion on this earth is our very own selves. Intention is everything, and the minute we give up our power and leave it in the hands of another anything we have essentially removed ourselves from the equation. Anyone can take anything and perceive it however they like but this quote makes me think that I'm not the only one who thinks this way, my ideas are not original.
"As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives. " Henry David Thoreau
I don't intend to change anyone's beliefs only offer my experience as new ideas. I don't know if there is a God or there isn't a God but I do know that the closer I get to me, the more I know about myself, the closer I'll get to the truth. Often times it takes digging through a mile of shit to get to the bottom of things but the simple reality once you're there is unsurpassed. I say you, me and we a lot, I think that everyone can benefit from getting to know themselves better. I do, however, mainly speak for myself, I need reminders frequently. The more I frequent that path the more second nature it becomes. I have gotten
to know me closely, and though I sometimes lose sight of where I'm going I always find my way back. I've ventured near the edge a few times in my life and I talk about it so maybe others don't have to go there.
"What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us. " Thoreau
"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them. " Thoreau
Sorry, the dude just said it better than I ever will.