Sunday, September 15, 2013
A few thoughts
By nature I am not a happy person, I can be mean and sometimes brutal. I've learned to control it but once in a while it shows its ugly face, a rage that dwells deeply even though its settled just underneath the surface. These aren't negative feelings about myself, it's the truth about who I am. I don't hide it, in fact it's pretty well known, I've had to apologize to almost everyone I know at some point in time or another. There is no excusing it so I don't make excuses but I have to look at why I'm doing it. Usually something is bothering me and that can only mean one thing, change is coming. Ideas have rooted themselves in my mind and it's almost like part of me is fighting it, trying to take over by causing a commotion....growing pains, me versus my alter ego. (not so much it just sounded good) I've drawn a line in the sand and crossed over it, there's no turning back, just go with it.