Thursday, October 10, 2013

I'm right until I'm not right...

I can see my breath and there are still a few crickets out there playing their song,  fading remnants of the summer passed. (I never know if it should be passed or past,  and it irritates me that I don't)  The thought process never stops,  not during waking hours,  anyhow.  Earlier the thought dawned on me,  the one in the title,  and it hasn't left me alone all day.  As much as I'd like to think I know everything,  that logic is faulty.  Being readily able to admit when I don't know things, and that's only true because it's easier to save face later,  but I live my life as if I'm right,  all the time.  That is not to say it's good or bad, it's only an observation of myself that seemed strikingly important when it happened, so I'm paying attention,  even if it is a little narcissistic and ocd'ish.  I don't have a need to be right for the sake being right, I need to be right for the sake of being closer to the truth.

 And that's me thinking out loud.  Nothing I say is set in stone,  my brain and its ideas are like a puzzle,  I have 10 million pieces and I'm trying them all out together to see how they fit and work together.  How can I live with an idea I haven't tried out?

I just keep trying them out.


  1. I think a part of us wants to have all the facts right because it's a confidence booster. There's a lot of grey in the world, and I think I prefer that the most, I like not knowing everything and looking at something with a blank slate. Not knowing, or even pretending not to know, makes a lot of the mundane things in my life feel more amazing. Do you sometimes convince yourself that you're seeing something for the first time, even though you're not? I do that probably more than I should, but it helps me to feel happier and I don't see the harm in that :)

    1. I may not call it the same thing you do, but I do often like to see things in their simplest form with no labels or preconceived ideas. It used to be hard but has become a lot easier, like I don't have to sit and try it just happens. And you're right, it does change things for the better.

  2. I think we all want to be right... we don't want to look foolish being wrong... hence why I don't offer an answer unless I'm sure... I need to take more chances ;-)

  3. I think that's a good way to be, it seems open to that truth and the best way in finding it.
    I often think I'm wrong (in any situation) and that just leads down a negative path of self- doubt/confidence/questioning, which turns out that I'm always wrong anyways.
    Keep fitting those pieces together, whatever shape they form I don't think anyone but you could say it's wrong.
    Much love xx

  4. I think you meant, you're right till you're wrong. Ha.

    Passed is a verb in past tense. I passed you on the street yesterday. He passed me the nutella. Past has lots of uses. Noun. Adjective. Adverb. So, summer's past. Or summers' past. Depends on if you're talking about several summers, or just this last one.

    Oh hi, I'm an English teacher.

    1. Yes, "I'm right until I'm not right" was a euphemism for I'm right until I'm wrong. Just sounds better to my ego. :)

      And I was hoping you'd chime in on the passed/past thing, being that you are an English teacher. I think I get it now.

  5. I think I get it.
    I mean if that's not what the mind set is, how else are we supposed to function?
    Unless you learn to respect the only person you're gonna be with all your life-yourself, what else would you ever do.
    So, taking yourself this seriously, is justified.