Roaming around the grocery store last night I realized I'd fit right into an episode of Seinfeld. I had an oddly uncomfortable conversation with a gentlemen in the vitamin aisle. I was looking for some melatonin so I can get some decent sleep. He started telling me about the mens multi-vitamin he was looking for and why he needed em. I think he was high on something, or maybe it was just me.
It's a very different thing doing stuff on my own for a change. I was joking yesterday that I had to go buy myself a new belt for the first time ever. I'm experiencing everything from a different perspective now and I kind of like it. It's amazing how different things can seem from just a slightly different angle. Things that may have once seemed like a chore is now just another adventure, even if it is only deciding which belt I like. Oh, there's still this nagging voice in my head telling me I'm wrong but my feet are so willingly moving forward. A bit of the weight has been lifted from me, it's no wonder me feet move with ease.
I still have no clear path ahead of me, everything is a moment at a time. I feel like I want to be around people, but people I don't know. I want to have a conversation with someone who knows nothing about me, nothing of my past. I don't want the words I say to be judged by any of the actions I've taken recently. I can feel people shaking their heads as if pleased by knowing they were right about me. It doesn't matter, I'll continue forward. It would be nice to go where nobody knows my name. Just another nameless face in a crowd. Sometimes that's ok. Right now it's ok. I'm getting by.